I think i

do know how you feel now. And it must have not been easy, to hear me talk about all those things. It's not like me to be that insensitive, but i cannot return what i cannot return now. maybe not now. i want nothing destroyed cus i need what i have left now, i will protect it, i will protect us.

Need to clear my mind. and what irony, i find myself in p's shoes now, saying his words. For those i have hurt and disappointed, i am sorry. I am not sorry for not being able to return your feelings, i am sorry you had to go through this.

(:

i do love you, but not in that way i will, i can. maybe someday i may. but not today.