i know you don't read my blog and i am well assured that you wouldnt read this.
i do not know what exactly i wanna write here now, its a lot of feelings and emotions. and my heart is aching, my throat is tight. i promised palley i wouldnt cry.
i promised myself. and i also will promise you, whoever.

no more lies, and heartaches.
those days you were on the phone with me telling those shits, you know them very well. you didnt want to take them back it is fine. know why cus i didnt believe what u told me,
dun blame me. i couldnt trust you. and i was proven right.

i am so damn sick and tired of being the nice pillar holding up your damn world. always telling you that im okay, that it is okay even when it is not.
im gg to speak for myself for once now. i cant care much if u will be guilty (ornot) whatsoever.
and that is, goodbye.
no more chances of you ever gg to lie to me and hurt me.
i wish i can hate you but i am not that pro yet for now, i can only leave you. goodbye.
i duno when i will be back or will i ever be back.

just thank you for strengthening me from that year till now.
what a twist of fate and what a simple way to brush it off. good stuff. i got owned again. and hey dun feel guilty. i dun even know you now. just be well.