Yesterday

i spent the whole day figuring out my new samsung omnia. it's my first time with a pda phone and i cannot remember how many times i said 'ahhhhhhhhhhhhh' while figuring the phone out. Im so now a technology person. actually i just needed a phone that receives and makes calls and messages and take good pictures, and plays music and errrr i think thats all you know. oh, and looks nice and sleek.

im real easy to please when it comes to things like that. (: e2's got a new phone too and he says its a man's phone. mine's a ladies phone then. hahaha i hope none of you guys are using this, but if you are, theres no need to feel too gay.

so.....

last night, my cousin ran away from home. She's only 14 and it has been a day since she walked out. my ahyi and older cousins drove around and tried looking for her the whole day but .. she was nowhere to be found. Tried speaking to her last night but she was nothing but stubborn and insistent. I'm not sure if it has anything to do with her new so called bf, and i hope she's didnt just spend the night at his place. i felt more understanding towards her last night, but this morning, when i heard my ahyi's voice, i am actually pissed off with her. i hate it when they dont appreciate what they have. They have a great mum and what the hell is wrong with a mother protecting her daughter from she knew could very well happen to her daughter and come to hurt her.

a daughter who desperately wants to grow up, wants to have fun, wants to be happening, wants to be in a relationship. i almost saw my past flashed past me. But for the records, i never ran away from home, call it guts i would very much appreciate it if you do, i would be home, facing the mother and telling her what i want. in the face. i don't hide. cus it looks damn retarded, and how 'cool' can this be? please tell me you can survive and go on being away from home with no pocket money, no one to wash your clothes for you, no one to buy you food, no one to cook for you, no one to even care for you. tell me your liitle underaged and still-going-thru-puberty bf can help you with that. (: dream on.

you had a nice family, whatever you wanted they would buy you, your dad loves you, no correct that he literally spoilt you rotten, your mum is the bad guy who really too loves you alot. you live in a nice house, your dad would come in his mercedes to pick you up whenever you go hang out with your friends. and you hate it. im fainting, i am. if my dad ever offers, i will make him come fetch me EVERYTIME.

so yeah now the mum is sick and she is still gg around looking for you, you heartless lil thing. SHE IS SICK. and are you kissing your barely matured baby boy right now? eww. just the thought alone, activates my hand, and i so wanna give ya a slap now. for being so stupid and being sucha greattttttt daughter.

i just cannot believe what you did.

and i cant believe you didnt realise whatever she did, she did it for you. urgh, you are so fucking retarded NEOYUANXIN. she's like the best mum. (sometimes i think she's better than my very own) but yeah she is one of the BESTEST MUM. and you just freaking broke her heart.

i cant take you breaking her heart thats all. and im sorry but i actually hope something bad happens to you, if it can make u see, how stupid you had been.


and yeah, somehow i couldnt get to sleep last night although i was in bed already by 2plus. my mind kept working and i think i only went into sleep at 3 thirty. yeah and im hungry now. 24 more days.