so, the meet up

's cancelled.

.

I had been thinking. about the past, about the mistakes i have made, the people i have met and left. Many times i tell myself, not to think about things i need not think about. Not to do things that i need not do. Not all the time, i can convince myself enough to obey. Parts of those memories makes me look stupid. utterly stupid. and it sure doesnt feel good to feel this way. Had been thinking about this person. maybe i never really had forgiven him. If i did, why do i feel so bitter that he's happier than me now. been going through the pictures in my laptop, some dated years back. That's really why i like taking pictures cus they could tell me things i may have forgotten, and when i seek, i am allowed to make judgements based on what i see.

urgh im backspacing too much. cant find the right words and i cant put them into sentences.

bye.

actually you don't even know me.