this is the 3rd entry for today and even i myself think i am blogging too much. waay too much. recently blogging had been just random ranting, update of events. Been a long time ever since i got back to how this blog started as, somewhere i use the keyboard instead of the pen when recording my thoughts.

i believe i have evolved to become a very accomodating friend if you would draw the timeline back to a couple of years ago and compare it to the present. Sometimes i feel unimportant to people who are important to me. i do get weird feelings at the heart when i see how little i take up in her bloggings. Its always about other friends and in my eyes yes they are cooler, more fun, prolly more likely to be in the same mind freq as my friend than i am. people do change and it took me quite some time to learn and accept this fact, but i still did. I also learnt to ignore my own feelings.

i have yet to find that opportunity to make this known to that friend but i will. its only fair that i do. If this gonna break the love, then it shall break the love. i trust and i tell, the rest, i leave it to whatever's in charge.
If you take me seriously, you see beyond the me you see, and i know many failed to. judge for all you want because lucky for myself, i have lost before and i have learnt. to be heartless, maybe.

im real good at late night thoughts.