i woke up today at 3.58pm, still pissed. i even dreamt about it, can you try and imagine how pissed i am? maybe you cant, its beyond imagination.
and it seem like anything at all in the world can just set me off. and sure there were things that did. i will tell you what later. because that aint the main point here.

this entry i shall dedicated to our dear shawn!
i dun care if people who knows him reads, or even he himself the self thought almighty stumble across these things i am gg to write.
cus if you haven noticed, i dun give fuck about being nice anymore. i am me, like it take it.
no? then fuck you. fuck off.

you are nobody to tell me what to do you know. who do you think you are, huh. my father? my mother? or you paid for my trip? hello wake up call yo, you are neither. you are JUST NOTHING to me, if i decide to make you. and i can easily do that.

so quit being a pain in the ass with your stupid philosophies and incoherant reasonings. fuck them off to the outer space will you please.

because you know no shit, and you are not the one always doing the dirty job. i dun care what you think and they aint worth a penny to me. so shut up and keep your nose and stupid comments to yourself and outta laoniang's affair.
fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you!
fuck you and your arguements with me all the time over stupid things
fuck you for thinking that you and your 2.7 gpa brain is superior than all of us and we are just idiots. (and unfortchly for your info, my gpa is higher)
fuck you for being nice only when you are not having your men pms
fuck you for acting angelic at the wrongest time of all
fuck you for being mean to the girls
and serve you right when you have to eat your words when i fight back.

dun fool ard, with ester.

there was so many times i could have argued with you. we all know that you are talking shit and no sense, but hey we know thats just you shawn. you talk nonsense and you get pms.
so we just roll our eyes and move on.
appreciate that.

i kept my mouth shut just in hope that everyone would be happy and the trip wouldnt all be about fights and arguements.
but this time, you really set me off. really did.

you may think that it was some comment that you made outta your angelic mind, but seriously allow me to remind you once more.

YOU KNOW NO SHIT.

thankyouverymuch.


now, lets move on to the other things.
first of all.
its funny how people can be fake. one moment they are outta your life for a year or two the moment they hey you on msn.
and of cus they know you are in paris. well, if you are thinking of building some rapport now so that i will help you buy some lv guccis back,

let me tell you.

it is too late.
and i am not yellowpage or baidu. i send people songs and contacts who are my friends. if you jolly well am not really so, dun hey, do you have this particular song, thanks.
go to hell.

if you didnt have time to make me feel like your friend then ask baidu not me. i am not very free you know. fakers, out of my msn list you go.


lastly, i just wanna say some other nicer things as well such as.
i am already missing jules who's in london now.
and that i am so thankful for my mum's presence throughout this whole trip. supporting me all the way and being a friend i can talk to like now. her concern and gan cheongness everytime she sees news related to paris, touches me and tells me how much she loves me.
i feel wanted.

and that makes me think. why should i try so damn hard so that people will like me, want me and accept me? i am just me.
i dun have to suffocate myself like that. and i have more than enough true friends. add jules to the list pls.

alors!

i guess in this trip, i have gained and lost some. =)



fuck man, i have never been so pissed in the entire of this trip.